Saturday, May 15, 2010

Panicking outloud

Help! I'm feeling worthless today. I know that's completely ridiculous. But it's one of those days where I'm not feeling like much. This is triggered when I fall behind on all my to-do's. Like for example, I'm handing in my homework late, I haven't figured out what I'm doing for my birthday which is in six days, I don't know how I'm going to celebrate my graduation tomorrow, I haven't called my grandma in weeks, and, and, and... (I thought there was more but I've run out of things).

Hmm.

Now that I wrote this out and took it out of my head it's not so bad. (You're witnessing real time positive intervention here)...I'm not completely better...but I do feel more silly than worthless.

They say you teach what you need to learn...I guess I'm in the right place. I've got a lot of work to do!

Isn't it amazing how easy it is to spiral into negative emotion by the smallest of things? I decided to write this as way to get out of my head. Which is where all the action is.

I'm taking deep breaths. And will commit to stop "shoulding" all over myself for the day. That's the best I can do for now.

Best,
Stella

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